I have led a mixed life always busy always healthy and I have tried to be friendly and helpful to others. End of 2023 had some problems weight loss fatigue and some other symptoms in the end I knew without a doubt that it was cancer, February 24 list a kidney completely consumed by cancer and I was told my other kidney had a tumor but stable, next appointment I was told I had lesions on my lung and pancreas but again stable, just few weeks ago informed my cancer had grown starting immunotherapy in just over a week, family are all supportive but they aren’t aware of the fear I feel for what the future holds. My treatment is palliative so scary times, not sure how long I have but scared to ask to even think of the future, I am running on autopilot just retired as well.