Dear Ella10. I notice that your post was 7 months ago and I suspect that things have moved on enormously since then. Finding myself in a similar situation, I am thinking about you. I am just as scared and overwhelmed as you have been, but I wonder how you are doing, and how you feel now, how your feelings have changed (if at all). How/if you are coping ...I understand if you'd rather not respond, but thought I'd drop you a line, if nothing more than to send deepest sympathy for what you are going through. 

Dear Ella10. I notice that your post was 7 months ago and I suspect that things have moved on enormously since then. Finding myself in a similar situation, I am thinking about you. I am just as scared and overwhelmed as you have been, but I wonder how you are doing, and how you feel now, how your feelings have changed (if at all). How/if you are coping ...I understand if you'd rather not respond, but thought I'd drop you a line, if nothing more than to send deepest sympathy for what you are going through.