Painful ribs, one thing led to another and I recently got the dreaded news, mass in my upper right lung, spread to lymph nodes and ribs. But I couldn't go in for the results appointment as I contracted COVID so it was done over the phone. They told me it's inoperable, and incurable, but didn't explain why. Is it odd that I'm jealous of people having parts of their lungs removed?

My treatments will be aimed at obtaining a period of stability.

Will see oncologist this coming week, hopefully will find out a lot more about what's going on.

Naturally my emotions are all over the place. I'm either batch cooking meals for the freezer or feeling like I want to fight everyone and anything. I've muted some WhatsApp groups I'm in before I upset people!

I want to keep a positive mental attitude, but I also want to be realistic. And I want to make the most of whatever time I have, so having COVID was very frustrating. I feel like it took away a chunk of this "in limbo" time when I'm not sick from cancer or cancer treatments and should be making hay!