Hi Caropal,

Welcome to Cancer Chat. I'm glad you've found the forum and I hope that it can be helpful for you.

I can understand your feelings, and what you are describing sounds perfectly natural - it's easier said than done but try not to feel guilty about this. I am sure the uncertainty must be really difficult to deal with.

It is very common to Google things to try to find answers, but often the information won't be appropriate, or it may increase worries. Instead try to get any answers from your husband's doctor where possible.

I'm not sure if you have others around you for support, such as friends and family. Either way, there are resources available if you feel you'd like some additional support - such as Macmillan and Maggie's.

As I say, I also hope that this forum can be of some help to you too - we are always here if ever you need it, even if it's simply to write things down and to reach out to others.

Wishing you all the best,

Ben
Cancer Chat Moderator