Hello and thank you to anyone who reads this,

I saw a GP today because my breast has a dimple that wasn't there before.  During the examination I was lying on my back and she asked me if my nipple always looked like that.  I looked down and it was completely concaved in and certainly didn't look right.  I was shocked because to be frank I don't usually look at my breasts lying down, so it looked worse than I first thought.  I actually thought the GP would've said I was overreacting or she couldn't see anything. She has done a fast track referral to the breast clinic.  

And now I am a complete wreck.  I told two friends who have been wonderful, but I haven't told my parents because they have COVID and I don't want to tell them over the phone.  I am a single mum (48) to two beautiful girls (19/14) and every time I look at them or think about them I want to burst into tears, and when I'm alone I do.  I can't stop crying and I'm here typing this in my living room feeling completely and utterly alone.  I know I'm not diagnosed so there's a chance I could be fine, but being a person with mental health issues and generally not a very positive outlook, I can not stop thinking the worst.  I have so many questions.  How long will I have to wait for my appointment, should I tell my kids now or after diagnosis, should I tell my parents?  How do I behave normally with this ominous thing looming over my head?