Hi

Feeling very overwhelmed at the moment & thought this might be a good place to empty my head, with maybe a few helpful hints from people.

My Dad was diagnosed with Non Hodgkin Lymphoma (stage 4) in November last 2023. He is 79 and obsessed with keeping fit, so it came as a massive shock to him.  he was misdiagnosed for 4 months by a consultant so by the time he became really ill and was admitted to hospital, he had lost 2.5 stone and his organs were failing due to the size of a huge tumour squashing his stomach, liver, kidneys. He was admitted to hospital for a month and chemo was started. He eventually came home and had 5 further rounds of chemo and 15 sessions of radio. It was a very rocky road with 3 more A&E admissions during this time. Treatment finished in May this year and we spent the next few months building him up and getting him back on his feet. 

He had a PET scan 2 weeks ago and discovered the cancer had returned and had spread to 2 more areas. He has started chemo again today and he’s taking it all in his stride (he’s a very laid back person, I wish I was!!). I am trying really hard to be positive and hopeful, but also logical in that the cancer returned returned as soon as treatment ended. How well can his body take the treatment again when he only finished the last lot 3.5months ago.

I can’t bare the thought of losing him, I hate seeing my Mum in such a state of distress, I haven’t told my 11 year old that the cancer is back as he worships his grandad & I feel like my head is spinning. 
I have an amazing circle of friends and family around me but at the same time feel so alone. 

sorry for the war and peace post, wishing for a miracle and hoping that my Dad can be here forever