Hi I decided to join this forum to help me get through what seems like a life long fight.
Iv had bowel cancer and then bladder cancer twice.
Thankful to still be here.
6 years since my last TURBT and 3 years since I finished my immunotherapy BCG.
Just had my cystoscopy and have been asked to go back in 3 months due to a red patch in my bladder which was there two years ago but no changes so no worry.
Now my nurse says go back in 3 months but if I want a biopsy I can do that.
I said I trust them and will 3 months make a big difference they said no.
Now home my mind is going over everything and knowing my last one was high grade I'm feeling scared which I never feel, I've always just delt with it all with no fuss, but this time I feel different and iv asked to speak to my nurse about it all as was in a bit of shock thinking I'm going back in 3 months possible biopsy, possible cancer, possibly have to have bladder removed, can't I have treatment again?
Am I getting closer to dying?
It's all going round in my head I can't go yet I've a grandson 2 half whome I adore and need to see him grow up, I have a son who needs me and husband who needs me, it's madness I'm thinking like this but haven't I been through enough, can't I have happiness and health.
I'm 64 I'm scared to know what's next.
Thanks for reading
God bless
