Hi Jan2024,

Welcome to Cancer Chat. I'm sorry to hear of how you are feeling - although I think it is good that you are recognising this. Treatment can cause or contribute to people acting differently, so you are not alone and I'm sure others here will have similar experience.

It might be helpful to seek some support for this, to help you feel better and perhaps to manage things in the way you want to. If you haven't already, have a look at the information on  our website about mental health and cancer. There is some advice about accessing support that you may find useful. 

Maggie's are another organisation who can offer some support, and for some they have local centres to visit too, to meet others in similar situations. I'd also really encourage you to talk with your GP and clinical nurse specialist, if you have one, about how you're feeling. It may be that they can help you access some support to improve things. 

Regarding what you describe as the worst part of how you are feeling - if ever you feel really bad, please give Samaritans a call on 116 123; they are available 24/7.

Hopefully you'll get some more replies to your post soon from other members of the forum. You can also browse or search the forum - using the bar at the top of the page - for other relevant discussions and people to connect with, if you would like to.

We are always here for support.

Wishing you all the best,

Ben
Cancer Chat Moderator