Hello Katherine-t,

                            l feel for you since you are travelling the exact, the very exact path l trod coming on ten years ago. Now you are setting off on a voyage of discovery in regard to your body and how it functions. Alongside this your mind has quite a lot of playing catch up to come to terms with. l am pleased to read the line of least resistance in your post, it should mean you are keeping your stress levels to minimum, its a stealer of energy at a time you can least afford it. l found that casting aside what if and accepting what will was a great help in focusing upon getting on with life. Pushing myself to my limit and accepting not to go beyond was always going to be hard for a workaholic, but the redemption was that in doing so that limit stretched out a little every month. Learning patience is a lesson we all attend at some stage, l certainly learnt mine on my slog back to recovery. l also became much more aware of all the wonderful things that surround my life, l am sure you will find the same,

                                                                                                                   David

Thank you for your reply David and good to know that this was getting on for ten years ago now. I totally agree about not adding to stress. I think the language surrounding cancer isn't always helpful "battling" "strugglong" "the fight" etc. I believe that we have enough to cope with, without the feeling that we must "fight" . I liked what you said about learning patience. That's where I'm getting to - I want to do my usual long hikes but am starting with two miles a day ! Perhaps I'll add a mile a week !

Best wishes. 

Kate

l admire ambition but adding on yards each week seems more attainable, whatever enjoy that fresh air assuming you reside somewhere that is blessed with some, stay safe,

                  David