Hi, new to this group. My hubby has been battling myeloma for 8 years. He is now on end of life care at home. Im not coping at all well, about 4 weeks ago i had a complete breakdown and ended up at docs and put on diazapam. 4 weeks on i feel more human, but so depressed!! I cry all the time. I know i cant stay on the diazapam long term but i know if they take me off it i will go crazy again!! - never felt so bad in all my life!! Ive been signed off work because mentally i cannot cope . I should just say i am my husbands sole carer and we have no friends or family in the area. My husband stays in bed all the time, just gets up to use bathroom etc. So everything falls on my shoulders.i dont begrudge looking after him im just finding day to day everything too much!! I have been referred for counselling which i hope will help. I just feel so alone!! I dont go out because i have no where to go or anyone to see close by. My daughter lives 1.5 hours away. Just wanted to get things off my chest and reach out to chat with anyone else feeling the same?