Last March I have an upper right lung Lobectomy with removel of several Lymph Nodes, 1st  scan date coming up.

All went well and no nasty pathology found, so why can I not get past the, What if it returns,  another lady on here said the same, it holds me back from living life, as I know that what will be, will be.

The main thing is my mental state, have had counselling and they are very good.

My family gathered round before the Operation,  but nothing afterwards, all I got was, well there was only a small % chance of you dying,  not one  of them supported my incredible friend who looked after my dear dog, nor attempted to hoover for me.

Work has been an absolute nightmare with trying to sort out my shifts, and a colleague was so nasty it sent me into a mental downwood spiral for which the Dr signed me off, now faced with going back to work in the next 2 weeks, my anxiety is 10 fold.

I feel so alone