Scared and angry

I am 70 years old. I had severe Endometriosis from my early 20s. Post menopause I started bleeding regularly. Eventually in 2009 I had a complete hysterectomy and afterwards the surgeon told me how bad it was.

Last August I was taken ill away from home and although I didn't want to bother anyone an ambulance was called. Back home I took the letter from the hospital and a large number of tests were done. Eventually got a phone call saying I had a mass attached to an ovary. This wasn't possible as I'd had a total hysterectomy.  I was sent to the Gynaecology Oncology outpatients department on 2nd January. I had more tests and had a MacMillan Nurse present.  Eventually I was told the during the hysterectomy the right ovary was difficult  to remove so it was broken up and some left in place. This remnant has a 12 x 10 mass attached which may be malignant.  Tests have shown its in a very poor condition. I was told surgery would be 4 weeks but now on week 7.

I apologise for the length of the post but I have no one who can really understand how I feel. Usually if I tell anyone the first question is am I going to sue. That had not crossed my mind but at the hospital I am asked if I'm angry. I am but I'm more scared as I have other health conditions inclusing CRPS.

  • Hi Elles5,

    Welcome to Cancer Chat. This sounds like a lot to deal with, and I can certainly understand you must be feeling a mix of emotions.

    No need to apologise, and it's exactly what this forum is here for - to write things down and to reach out to others who understand. It is a supportive community and I hope that it can be helpful for you - we are always here if you need it.

    If you do want to discuss your concerns at all, it may be worth contacting your local PALS (Patient Advice and Liaison Service).

    I hope it's not much longer for you to wait for your surgery.

    Wishing you all the best,

    Ben
    Cancer Chat Moderator