Good afternoon everyone,

I'm a Brit but have lived in the Netherlands for 32 years. Twenty one years ago I had a mastectomy and chemo. Last week a biopsy of a sub clavicular lymph node showed breast cancer cells. I've been referred to an oncologist and have an appointment on Wednesday. As an ex-nurse I realise the implications of the biopsy result and now feel like I've been thrown back twenty one years only this time the outcome can only be worse.

I can't sleep, am worried sick and just don't know what to do with myself. I know there are so many people in the same boat but I feel lonely. Any sense of faith in my own body has gone. Writing this down helps a little bit. 

Just to wish everyone out there in a similar position peace and comfort. Goodness knows we need it.