Hi, I'm Elly.

About 7 months ago I started having really painful breasts, aching while not being touched and then sharp pain when anything touched them. I tried to make an appointment with my gp and they gave me a phone call appointment. They didn't even examin my breasts and they said that I should be fine and just wait to see if it will go away and come back again in over a year if it didn't. 2 months after that call I couldn't deal with the pain and the anxiety over not knowing what was the cause, so I pushed and got another appointment, this time in person and with a different doctor. My doctor couldn't figure out any obvious reasons and so I have been referred to the breast clinic. It terrifies me and the waiting is awful. I know that it's unlikely to be cancer because the doctor couldn't find a lump but my cousin has just been diagnosed with it, my gran had it too and we just lost my partners mum to lung cancer so it's just constantly on my mind now. I can't stop playing out how I would react to it and how I could ever tell my loved ones. People who have gone through this are so incredibly strong. I guess I just feel a bit overwhelmed right now.