feel alone

hi i'm Sharon i am 51 my birthday today actually was diagnosed with breast cancer with bone mets in 2022 , first sign i had it was leg pain then my leg fractured as i was walking outside such a shock had 2 operations to pin my leg was on a walking frame for months then crutches but now i am walking fine nearly normal not even a limp, been given tablets been on them for nearly 2 years now but recently ive developed an ulcer under my breast which looks absolutely awful my dr said i need radiotherapy on it which will get rid of it but its distressing me so much i just dont know where to turn really my dr did say its all treatable but i seemed to have gone into this awful depression just hoping coming on here might somehow help 

  • HI Sharon,

    A very warm welcome to our forum.

    I am so sorry to hear of all that you've been through and now of your recent ulcer. Have any plans been made to treat this yet, or are you still waiting? Having cancer is akin to riding one of the biggest rollercoaster rides that you've ever encountered - up one minute and down the next. The good news is that you will come out of this depression. Life's too short to let cancer take over.

    You have come to the right place for support from others, who have experienced what you are going through. Do you have support from family and friends? Sometimes, it's easier to chat to strangers here, than it is to burden loved ones with our woes.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. In the meantime, we are always here for you.

    Kind regards,
    Jolamine xx
  • Thank you so much for replying didnt think anyone would i am starting radiotherapy for the ulcer next week 6 treatments they said it should improve the ulcer but will be months before i see a difference.  You are right this is like the worst rollercoaster ride i have ever been on had this for nearly 2 years and was coping fine but this horrible ulcer seemed to push me over the edge just couldnt cope anymore thats why i came on here dont always want to worry family , this last week i have been to some really dark lonely places its been so awful but i saw the nurse today who has dressed my wound and made me feel more comfortable but i still feel very fragile just crying all the time and worrying just really hope i can get through all this just want to be happy again. Thanks Sharon xx

  • not sure my message sent so will send it again thank you so much for replying it really helps to talk to someone i have had this illness for 2 years and was coping fine or so i thought now i think ive been in denial all this time this new problem with the ulcer seems to have pushed me over the edge i am starting a course of radiotherapy next week which they said will solve the problem but could take months to improve ive been given a decent prognosis even tho i will no doubt be on long term treatment as its in bone but ive been to some really dark lonely places especially this last week still very tearful and afraid its so awful all i want is to be happy again  Thanks Sharon xx