Well I never thought I'd be doing this, but here we are...

So my wife (51) had her first mammogram just before Xmas, and both of us were expecting that to be it for 3 years. But last Friday, she received a call saying she was being recalled as microcalcifications had been found, and since that point we've both just been in limbo. Of course, I went crazy with Dr Google which I know isn't advisable, but I sill did it. Fast forward to this week, and on Tuesday I went with her to the hospital where they carried out an enhanced mammogram and a biopsy. I have to say that the staff there are fantastic, they were all so kind. I thought I was holding it together, but when i watched my wife walk down the corridor in a gown for her biopsy, well that was it, i just went under the moment she turned the corner.

After the biopsy my wife told me what happened - she was informed that whilst there was nothing obvious on the enhanced mammogram, they were doing the biopsy to, and I quote, 'prove innocence' - which I am taking as a positive? The nurse also told me that calcifications, even micro ones, are very common, and that even if there was something nasty, it was being caught very early and is totally treatable. She also said (and I'm not sure if this is standard procedure / training) that if at this point they suspected bad news (and she says they all have experience of this), then they will almost 'plant that seed' in the patient's head so that when they come for results they are partially prepared . Given that no such seed has been planted, this is something else I'm taking as a positive, although I'm not so naïve as to believe we're out of the woods yet. Does anyone else have experience of this?

I know this is a somewhat rambling post, I guess I'm just reaching out for help. As a husband, I'm trying to focus on the positives, but it's something that I can't stop thinking about all of the time, especially in the small hours.