Hello Cathy, your head will be awash with so many questions, emotions and stuff in this new whirlwind ! It’s normal and also normal to be scared. I was diagnosed with terminal oesophageal cancer a year ago and have had the same  journey - I beat it and was about to go into remission last week but it’s in my brain now so I’ve been given a few weeks before I will have to leave. Imagine that - ‘cured’ to another death sentence in 2 minutes!!  Am only 59 and I’m so ***** off I can’t describe it, especially after all the treatment, operations and grief!  I spent the first 7 days crying my eyes out but now, having talked it out loud and rationalised it I am finding peace. You must find your peace somehow because if not - it will destroy you first. All of us on here know the emotions and loneliness you are going through so you will get plenty of support from us - you are not alone! Fight it, fight it and fight it again. Get second opinions and seek alternative therapies but be realistic - I was offered treatment for $500,000!! I’ve not earned that amount in my lifetime!!  Buy my book and it will save you - of course!! You must talk to your daughter and fight it together; you will need each other in dark times. Laugh a lot, live a lot. It’s not fair but it is what it is. Reach out to those that are there - my nurses etc have been fantastic. In some ways we are  lucky because we can have a farewell tour :-) x