Hi all,

First time post,

My mum has been diagnosed with bowel cancer. No full prognosis yet, we just know that she has it. I'm in my 40s, she's in her 70s, I have no kids and she's always been my rock. Life without her is going to be hard. I honestly don't know how I will cope to pick up where she left off, running things and looking after my father (who relied heavily on her).

I've seen more people die than most people probably should in my previous proffession but this feels very different.

I guess it doesn't really matter if no-one reads this or replies to it, I'm just trying to get my thoughts and emotions out withouit burdoning anyone. I need to be strong for everyone, especially for my father. Normally I'd go to my mum for help but I don't think help is coming this time. I feel so alone and helpless. 

Robb