Undoubtedly, your cancer has effected you at least for now in terms of work and life but you can always get “back on that horse” when you are able to. It’s never too late to think about future you and this experience will make you stronger. I think it’s very promising that you’ve had a gastrectomy (stomach removal) and D2 lymphadenectomy. I am hopeful you will recover and I think you should be too. You can only wait for now I hope the wait isn’t too hard on you and wish you all the luck I can give. If results are “bad” then remember you can still keep on for years and years with a relatively normal life it’s not all doom and darkness.

Remember a lot of online statistics are heavily out of date by 5 to 10 years and cancer treatment and control has developed sooo well in that time. Plus you have an advantage with your age. You just got unlucky that’s all. It will take time to process any bad news as I’m sure you know and that’s okay as long as you don’t let yourself spiral down into sadness for the long term (it’s okay and even good to be sad now though). Eventually you need to reach a point of acceptance where you can just say it is what it is. Read lots of non fiction about acceptance, philosophy, etc. Reach out to people when you can. These will help you.