Lump back of neck

Hi All,

About 3-4 weeks ago I discovered a lump at the back of my neck. It's just off centre, to the right. It's in the high cervical spine area, close to hairline. It feels under the tissue. I'm not sure if it'd be visible from the outside, maybe a little. It is hard and immovable. 

I went to the GP just over a week ago who examined all of my lymph node areas and there were no other lumps. She has referred me for an ultrasound. She asked a lot of questions and seemed more concerned about my weight loss. I'm a 42 year old female and I have anxiety. I have put the weight loss down to anxiety, as my stomach is constantly in a nervous knot the past few months. She said I needed bloods taken, which I had a few days ago and I'll get those results on Monday. She said based on the results of the bloods I may need to get the camera down, presumably she meant an endoscopy.

The conversation went in a direction that I wasn't expecting it to. The neck lump is my biggest concern. It's hard to tell if it's gotten bigger as I'm constantly touching it, all day every day since I found it.

I have pins and needles in my right hand too but I had been putting that down to anxiety as I've been going through an episode since around March. However, anxiety cannot produce a neck lump.

I'm still waiting to get the ultrasound appointment. I'm going to call them on Monday though to try to hurry things along. 

I'm living in a mental hell right now with worry and fear. I've never had a lump before. Maybe I'm posting in the wrong place but I need someone to talk me down off the edge. 

  • Hi Lili,

    I'm so sorry you're going through such a miserable time. I'm new here too, also 42 and I also have horrible anxiety (along with all the weird and not-so-wonderful physical symptoms that come with it). Usually meds keep it under control but at the moment I'm a wreck as I'm waiting to be seen for possible oral cancer. I don't know that there's anything helpful or useful I can say, but I wanted to reply just to let you know that you're not alone - I completely understand the exhausting cycle of dread and worry and overthinking that sets in, it's so hard to get out of.

    The only thing I know of that helps me is purposely distracting myself. When I start to feel myself spiralling I literally say to myself (sometimes out loud) "This is something I can't do anything about right now, I'm going to focus on things I CAN do, right this minute". I then do a kind of mental list of things - it might be as banal as housework tasks, it might be catching up with emails, it might be some piece of media I've been meaning to watch/read/listen to. I usually pick the task that will be quickest first, and then I try to keep going down the list until I feel calmer. It doesn't always work for me, and of course everyone is different. But it might be worth trying?

    The other thing I will say is that although it's completely normal to worry (I can't imagine there's anyone on this earth that doesn't in this kind of situation), it's a positive thing that your GP wants to get you looked at. Statistically it's unlikely there's anything seriously wrong, and getting checked out is the best way to make sure of that. I'm telling myself the same thing several times a day at the moment. Hang in there.

    Hobbit x

  • Hi Lillian, did you have the ultrasound?