SORRY FOR LARGE TEXT IM PARTILLY SIGHTED DUE TO CHEMO AND VIRUS. NOW I KNOW IM BEING ABIT FAST BUT I HAVE BEN HAVING THESE FEELINGS ON AND OFF SINCE REMMISION. FEELS EACTLY THE SAME AS I PREVIOUSLY FELT JUST BEFORE DIAGNOSIS..ENERGY IN LEGS AND ARMS, LEADING TO BEING UNABLE TO MOVE VERY MUCH . IT MAKES ME HAVE TO GO AND LAY DOWN. THE TIREDNESS IS SO SCARY THAT AT TIMES I CAN ONLY DISCRIBE IT AS IM DYING. THIS EXHAUST FEELING THIS TIME HASNT GONE AWAY. THO SOME WHAT BETTER.

I HAVE MENTIONED THIS TO MY HEMOTOLOGIST AND SAYS THERE IS AN ABNORMAL MUTATION WITHHIN THE T CELLS. IM WONDERING IF THIS WAS THE SAME FORST TIME AROUND.

THE WEIGHT LOSS IS GREAQT IF YOU WANT TO LOOSE SOME, BUT I DONT HAVE ANY TO LOOSE. THE WEIGHTLOSS LEAVES MY SKIN HANGING AND WRINKLY. AGEING BEFORE MY TIME.

FEEL AS THO THERES NO MOSTURIE IN MY BODY.

I HAVE MY SUSPICIONS AND IM GUESSING SO DO MY TEAQM BUT WONT COMMIT TILL THEY HAVE THE SCANS. I DONT KNOW HOW MAYTIMES I WILL BE ABLE TO TAKE THIS AGAIN, ITS SO TIRING.

IF THIS IS THE CASE AND PERIPHIAL T CELL  I HAVE LREQDY PLAYED THIS OVER AND OVER GAIN.

I WILL NOT HAVE TREATMENT IT DESTOYED BY BODY WHICH I STILL FIGHT TO RECTIFY., RREASON FOR NO TREATMENT ARE BECAUSE MY PERIPHIAL TCELL 4 WITH CHEMO SET OF A VIRUS IN MY BODY LEADING TO SIGHT LOSS IN THE RIGHT EYE. SO JUST FOR THAT REASON IT NOT HAPPENING. CANT TAKE THIS RISK OF BEING BLIND. SO DECIDED NO TREATMENT AT ALL. JUS GET ON WITH LIFE.

THANK YOUU FOR READING THIS. ANY ADVICE OR SUGGESTIONS WOULD BE GREAT. I KNOW STAFF CANT GIVE ME THE ANSWERS, ILL HAVAE TO WEAIT TILL THEN. BUT LIKE I SAY I HAVE A GOOD IDEA WHATS GOING ON.. BUT HEY I COULD BE WRONG HAHHA