Hi everyone. I am new here. I wanted to share what has happened to me to see if I could get some advise. This may be a bit long and I am not sure if I am in the right place. 

It started in 2012. I was supporting my mum because my dad was in hospital for heart problems. My nan had cancer and suddenly got worse. I had to sit in with my mum when they told her about hospice care. She then died. Back then I thought I shouldn't be there. Then my dad had a major heart attack and had a triple heart bypass which didn't go well. He survived but it wasn't nice to witness. Then my uncle had a heart attack and nearly died. He had to have a bypass aswell. Then my older uncle got cancer and I helped take care of him. I witnessed alot of not so good stuff. He died after we found him in his house. That wasn't nice. Then my mum got stage 4 lung cancer. She died 10 months ago. I was with her on her last day at home. She had really gone down hill in the last months of her life.  Now my dad has had another heart attack and has been in and out of hospital. I am really worried about him. And to top it off I have heart problems after a heart attack 20 years ago and I have other health issues. I helped my mum care for all these family members and I looked after my mum in her last days.

I did go to the hospice to get therapy but I didn't feel like it helped with all that I have been through since my nan died. I find I am having trouble processing it all and I think I might have ptsd. I don't know if I can handle another counseller at the moment so I thought I would try here.

Any advice anyone could give would be great.

Thanks.