Thanks very much Sunshine_sp for your good wishes. Yes, the not knowing if/how bad is the worst thing. I am grateful mine was picked up early in screening because I'm not great at checking for lumps! Once I knew it was treatable, I felt so much better and the radiotherapy is the last leg of treatment for me. Hopefully you'll have a good outcome and can put all the worry behind you!

Hi Case4 

Gosh I'm also rubbish at checking for lumps! The relief you must have felt at knowing it's treatable must have been immense! 
please do let us know how you get on with the radiotherapy. 
 

Thank you  

Hi Jolamine 

I do yes, my parents know and are supportive and I have told my friends. I find though that I'm not great at telling people just how scared I am! I guess because I'm having to pretend life is normal at home with my daughter..

But, last night in bed, I finally cried! And I'm hoping now I may just start to feel a bit stronger mentally for whatever may come next

Ha! I tell myself that! No point worrying, my outcome has already been determined, human nature just makes us worry! 
 

Anyway, I have a day off work today - we are having a family day as a kind of birthday treat for me (birthday is Saturday) so I'm looking forward to lunch and dinner out which will mean I won't have much opportunity to dwell..

Hi Sunshine-sp,

I told a few close friends how scared I was, but only a few. I found out early on, that the more positive I could appear to others, the better they took the news. There is nothing worse than people showing pity and being over-protective, or friends disappearing, because they don't know what to say. 

I hope that you are enjoying your day off today and wish you Very Many Happy Returns for Saturday.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hi Jolemine 

Thank you, I had a lovely day yesterday, although did breakdown a bit to parents which I think has proved cathartic as today I feel mentally stronger 

Only my closest friend knows how anxious I am, with others it's pretty much just been a statement. 
 

I'm counting down the maximum days I have left to hear about the results but definitely feel that if I hear today and it isn't good news, that I'd cope. Think I'm ready now to fight if I need to!

Xx

Hi Sunsine-sp,

I am glad to hear that you enjoyed your day yesterday. The occasional breakdown like that is cathartic. We can't hold on to all that stress forever and need a release valve at times. It is good to hear that you now feel ready to fight if you need to, but here's hoping that won't be necessary.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Well, after a rather agonising one week wait, the nurse from the hospital rang me today and told me my lump is a cyst! No further action is needed.

im waiting on receiving my letter explaining this but I am going to see the consultant anyway as I have some follow up questions. 
 

The relief was palpable although until I see the consultant to have some reassurances, for example that it won't turn cancerous etc I do still feel apprehensive

Thank you all so much for your comments and support and for all of you still waiting on results I'd like to wish you all the luck and good prayers in the world! 
 

xx

Fantastic news Sunshine-sp! What a relief for you xx

Hi Sunshine-sp,

I am delighted to hear that your lump is a cyst - what a relief this must be for you. I am glad to hear that you are still going to see the consultant, to get answers to some of your outstanding questions. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. I hope that you'll feel more reassured after you've spoken.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx