Thanks for your reply. 

Hi yes I have a wig, but the phrase "look like a man in drag", comes to mind.  The response from a couple of my old mates and the wig fitting team is positive but just can't find the confidence.  I know how ridiculous and self pitying I sound but honestly I am totally crushed and exhausted my hair was my crowning glory the last frontier of my old life....I will muster resilience, maybe try turbans, sun hats, etc coz I will need to wear some headress if we get another long hot summer again.   Until then, I await the first seedlings of my new hair, hopefully by Xmas fingers crossed.  Good luck and positive vibes to you as well x

Hi Lucy - please hear me out and take this in.

To put things bluntly, you are going through the fight of your life right now. A fight that, thankfully a lot of people you encounter in your day-to-day have never, and hopefully will never experience. People don't see a 'bald head' when they look at you, someone fighting cancer - they see someone incredibly brave, fighting a battle that they can't even comprehend.

I understand that self-confidence turmoil as I've been there myself but rest assured, it is 1000% temporary. Everyone around you will see you as a warrior, a pillar of strength and resilience going through some sh** to survive - please keep that in mind for yourself too.

you're a fighter, in a fight with the devil and WINNING. This experience can take our hair but you are winning and don't ever forget it!!

The only way to win is by making the sacrifices you, I, and every other fighter has made. Keep your HEAD HIGH and power through this!

here if you need a chat!

Thank you so much for your response. 

This sadly is my second cancer journey, (2009), so don't feel such a warrior more of a worrier (always have been, and will be ) and maybe the emphasis on my hair loss resonates more now due to it not happening first time around, if that makes sense even though my prognosis is very positive and this chemo session is shortish compared to thousands of others. Anyway, once this fatigue has passed in the next week or so then am actively looking for some headgear to feel less vulnerable I suppose.  Keep posting these lovely narratives they do help and I will take something from each and every post xx

well said x

Lots of scarves then when it got to hot I wore nothing on my head.   Mine has grown back so curly it looks like a granny perm and I hate my hair now often now wear a cashmere beenie hat.  X

Hi Folks

Just wondering about the lasting effects of neuropathy after 1st Taxol chemo.  My legs and arms are on fire right now and been advised may take a few more days to subside as not willing to offer any nsaids as not effective but will reduce the next Taxol cycle.  Without being alarmist am worried this will be a longterm issue. I feel scared and vulnerable today plus hardly any sleep or rest.  Thank you for my rant....feel free