Hi JIJ 

welcome 

sorry to hear your news 

I in July went to a breast clinic and same as you total shock was told suspicious then it was confirmed a week later . 
 

the waiting is the worst part I was hoping that it would come back a miracle and were they wrong .

this part honestly is the worst when you no the details type treatment plan it will feel more controllable I promise you that . 
 

I Ian now back living my life like it never happened.

I wish you all the best stay here thete is a massive support .

take care Lara x 

Hello Jj321

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this very difficult experience. I was a Score of 5 which is definitely malignant. A score of 4 is 'suspicious'  but please do not give up hope of getting good results. You could call your clinic tomorrow and chat with one of the breast nurses. They are brilliant at helping at this time.while ita hard to wait at least your team will have all detailed results next week and a plan if needed. I know you will be very worried and anxious so please try and get some support from a friend or family member who can also be there when you get your results next week. They will remember what is said too. If it does turn out to be cancer, and I really hope it doesn't, please know that treatment has advanced so much over the years and there are excellent outcomes now. I was diagnosed at the end of October and had surgery in early December and I'm back at the gym etc. I just have to get a week of radiotherapy and then take tablets for 5 years. Physically I'm doing good but it is a big shock psychologically so I am sending positive energy your way. Be kind to yourself now and try to not meet any trouble until you have to. Hopefully you will get good results and all will be well and if not please know that you will be well looked after by your team and we are all here to support you too.

Mx

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond to me.

Sorry you have had to go through this. its so frightening, but It's good to hear that if it is the worst case scenario that it is treatable and won't be off my feet for too long.

Thank you for responding.

im sorry for what you've had to go through. It sounds like they acted on everything fast. It's good to hear physically your okay, and back at the gym, as I was really worried for my daughter not having the best of me. 
Do you mind me asking? Have you had radiotherapy yet, or any of the tablets? Just wondering how they make you feel.

JJ 

yes I had 5 sessions of radiotherapy early November it went very well nothing to report honestly did feel a bit tired but nothing that put me to bed or anything like that I started tamoxifen nov 8 th these are really ok too no side effects so far slightly achy joints but that's about it nothing major x 

homestly you will be fine x 

Hi JJ321

I'm starting radiotherapy later in January  and I will know when the endocrine tablets are starting once I meet the oncologist. I'm not too worried about the radiotherapy but I'm a little bit worried about the side effects of the medication. Im aware that some people cannot toleratethe sise effects at all. I am post menopausal and thought that I had left all those yucky symptoms behind me so I'm really hoping they don't return with the medication.  I didnt take HRT and managed the symptoms of menopause by getting lots of exercise outdoors and cutting down on sugary foods and alcohol. Im hoping that this will work agsin if the medication causes side effects as I'd really like to give myself the best chance.

Mx

Hi Laraj

You have made my daycsharing your experience.  I hope I have the same experience as you have had with radiotherapy and Tamoxifen.  From what I've heard and read Breast cancer treatment has come a long way and people can get on with life very well once the initial shock and treatment are  dealt with.

Mx

Hi, just wanted to say that although my health problem is currently in the ovarian domain and not breast, your post really resonated with me because firstly I went through a mammogram scare just over a month ago (the biopsy came back that both places were benign) but more so because one of my biggest worries is that as I live alone and have two dogs, any diagnosis involving surgery or hospitalisation is going to severely impact my life. I know two dogs isn't quite the same as a six year old child, but the end result is that we are both on our own caring for souls who are wholly dependent on us, and something that impacts our health is very scary as the future suddenly becomes uncertain for both us and our dependents. I feel for you and can relate to your fear of the future. I also relate to the shock you felt. I went there with the mammogram biopsy and am going there again with the positive blood test for ovarian marker. You are obviously much younger than I am (I am 62) and I hope and pray for you that all will be well, as it turned out to be for me with my breast biopsy. We will get through this. Try and think only positive thoughts. I know this is easier said than done. I tried over and over to "think away" my biopsy sites, willing them to be benign against my expectations. And they were! I am trying to do the same with my current problem. Know that there are very many women here who have been in similar very scary places and they have come out the other side. It is helping me so much to read others' experiences and that helps me realise I am definitely not alone. Surround yourself with the caring ladies on this site and with any friends and relatives you can enlist for even perhaps the smallest things to support...a support network is worth its weight in gold at these times. Good luck for Tuesday...keep as calm as you can meanwhile, and pamper yourself a bit if you can over the weekend. Think of happy things and hug your little girl lots. xx

Hi to Everyone on this thread,

I am so sorry to hear of what you are all going through and how worried you all seem. I just want to reassure you that waiting for a diagnosis and then for treatment to start is one of the most worrying stages of your cancer journey. You may experience all sorts of emotions such as fear, anxiety, denial, worry, depression, acceptance, loneiness, hope, guilt, sadness, stress, and in general feel totally overwhelmed. All of these feelings are perfectly normal and will settle down with time.

I felt all of these emotions when I was first diagnosed 13 years ago, when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I had also lost my Mum to breast cancer, so I was absolutely terrified. I had a lumpectomy followed by tamoxifen. I had a second primary in the same breast a year after this and had a double mastectomy, followed by Letrozole for 6½ years. I stopped taking this in July 2017. Today I am still leading a busy and fulfilling life.

I hope that this can give some hope to those of you who are just starting out on your cancer journeys.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank you so much for responding. They really help.

sorry you've both had to go through this worry.

I woke up this morning full of dread and worry, it's all I can think about. I feel so scared about what's to come. 
 

 If you don't mind me asking, but when you said your biopsies came back benign, I was just wondering if the doctors originally told you it likely is cancer? I was just wondering whether to hold any hope that it's not or go with what they are saying?

thanks again for taking the time to chat to me.