Hi,
I was diagnosed just before Christmas and am waiting for a date for surgery. I am feeling very down and quite anxious about it all because I've only just recovered from open heart surgery and a valve replacement in 2020, then diagnosed with heart failure that meant I took early (ill health) retirement.
I was always very fit and very busy. The cardiac surgery and diagnosis really wiped me out and I was just starting to reclaim some of my life when this hit me.
So, sitting here feeling 'what's the point' of doing anything. I can't plan anything either as i don't know what is facing me re: further treatment - especially as I can't have radiotherapy because of the location of the tumour and I already have an implanted cardiac device under the same breast.
Wondering when any of this ends and why I am being repeatedly hit.
Sorry for being so negative but I really am sick of all of this. I know that I am lucky in many ways, and am grateful, but today is a bad day.
