Hi ExBarton,

Welcome back to our forum.

Having lost both of my own parents and parents-in-law to cancer, I am all too familiar with how you are feeling at present. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your dad and to hear that you are facing this once again with your mum. It is exhausting when you are regularly visiting hospitals or hospices for a prolonged period of time. You will also find that your grieving began as soon as you were told that your mum's condition was terminal.

 None of this will help your anxiety or depression and it's no wonder that you feel so overwhelmed. Do you have any family or friends who you can talk to and who can share the load with you? It sounds as if you could do with someone to talk all of this through with. Most cancer charities offer free counselling. There are organisations such as Marie Curie, Maggies, The Haven scattered throughout the country. There are also a number of different local groups which offer similar services. All you have to do is to contact your local group and make an appointment for counselling. Another source of help can be had from Cruise Bereavement Care. 

You can also get a referral from your GP or any health care worker, but this can take a little longer before you get an appointment through. You have made a start by writing down how you feel and this in itself can help. You can also turn to this forum, where so many have walked the road that you're on. We all understand your feelings and will do anything we can to try and help.

Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx