I had my smear in March 2020 and everything was fine. But the last week I’ve had random brown discharge intermittently so booked in to see the dr

She said my cervix or womb lining (think she meant opening) looks really red and doesn’t look right to her so she’s referring me to the hospital. She has taken some swabs too to send off to check for infection too.

I am going out of my mind with worry to the point I can’t even look forward to holidays or friends etc because I just presume I won’t be here. I’m so scared that it’s bad news and that I’ll never have children or worse die.

I’m an over thinker to the max so whilst it sounds stupid and I know it does I can’t help feel this way or push these thoughts out my mind! I'm also thinking if it's not cervical then I've got ovarian cancer, despite not having the symptoms, or if I do they're normal for me :/ 

I've an appointment with the gynaecologist Thursday!!