hi darling.

i am so sorry you're going through all of this. i know how hard of a decision this must be, but don't suffer in silence for your family's benefit. you need support right now, just as your brother does. if you feel ready, you should sit them down and have a conversation with them.

message me if you need anything x

Thank you for your reply. The waiting on results is just so overwhelming.im trying to just keep busy but I am exhausted. I have received my surgery pre-admission questionnaire..I have decided to wait for my results before telling family..

I just wish I knew if things grow that quickly?

What the doctor meant by some of them look abnormal?

I know he did 3 biopsy and removed a poylop for testing...am I overthinking this ..?

i understand how scary it must be to be waiting for results, and i know this is very much easier said than done, but try to remain glass-half-full about this until you get a definitive answer. take someone with you to any appointments for support (i know you're choosing to wait to tell your family, that's completely fair enough, but i'd definitely still take someone with you if possible). 

i wish i could answer your questions but i've not been in your shoes before. i'm waiting for an appointment with the breast clinic currently and i'm worried too. the unanswered questions are daunting, aren't they? but i'm sure we will both be fine. remember, even the worst case scenario of 'you have cancer' isn't a death sentence. it is terrifying and it's going to be hard but you can still live a full and happy life. we will get through whatever this is! 

best of luck, please do keep me updated -- message me if you need a friend x

Thank you for your reply. I very much appreciate it. 

Strange thou ..when I had cin3++ and urgent lettz procedure in 2018 I didn't find it nearly as daunting as this is ..why is it different,why do I feel differently this time ..I mean mentally..  

When the doctor read my notes from the biopsy I had 18months ago and said everything was normal he wasn't expecting to find anything ,I had got myself in the mind that they wouldn't and they would just say  u need the coil to help with the abnormal bleeding...but I think he was as surprised as me ..

I don't know how to plan for this...I'm main carer for my son who..is palliative care only and completely dependent on me for everything 24/7... If I need a hysterectomy..what will I not be able to do..will I need other treatments..so many questions so few answers ..

UPDATED

...so docs called . Biopsy showed areas of concern. Need surgery to remove mass and poylops and some lining from uterus to be sent for further testing . . Just wait on surgery date now ....always wait..