Hi 19003417 -

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. I am in a similar position with my dad, though I am a little older than you, and have other family members helping. But I understand the fear and pain you are going through.

Do you have anybody around you to talk to and ask for help? Seemingly small things, like somebody helping you with some cooking and cleaning, or just to vent to with a cup of tea, can be immensely comforting when you're going through a big and scary thing like an ill parent. You could maybe ask the NHS staff to for some recommendations for professional help. Try to take each day as it comes: googling, and thinking about all the ifs-buts-maybes can be overwhelming. Try and take care of yourself and ask for help from wherever you can: you will be surprised at people's capacity to help and care. You are very young and this is a lot for someone of any age to handle. Sending you lots of love and strength. xx