Hi,

This is not like me. I'm not one to discuss family problems or feelings. This is probably why I'm struggling so much. 

My mum is not one to deal with health issues. I can't remember her ever going to the doctors and it was only just before covid she went to the dentist for the 1st time in easily 35 years. She only needed one filling (2019) after that she complained she kept biting the side of her tongue with the tooth that had been filled, she made another appointment as she thought the filling was the reason, her dentist checked and said there was no reason and he couldn't see any issue, months past by and she was in agony. It was near Christmas and she showed me her tongue. There was a huge growth at the base of her tongue. I asked her to go to the doctors asap, it looked horrific. One day while she eating, a piece of food jammed into the growth splitting it open, it bleed constantly and the growth doubled in size, it had obviously been growing inside her tongue and now it had burst out of her tongue. One day my mum and dad came to my house and told me they had just been to A&E (Sunday) as she was feeling so poorly, it was a young doctor who had examined her and from what my dad described the young doctor looked horrified when he saw it, he took photographs and sent it to another doctor who wasn't working at the time. They took a biopsy and after a few days we learnt it was cancer. 
My mum was told she'd need surgery, she had more than 80% of her tongue removed in 2021. Not long after the surgery we were told she had the all clear! We were all absolutely delighted!! 
After only 10 days, my mum complained of something growing on her jaw where her teeth had been. The surgeon told her it was due to her top teeth impacting the gum where her teeth had been prior to surgery. For peace of mind they took another biopsy, another few days passed before we got the devastating news that it was cancer. She started chemo and immunotherapy but she had to stop the immunotherapy as it was making her too ill. The cancer has since spread to her neck, she has 3 large tumours that look like the are growing out of her skin and are very painful. 
On Thursday my mum was given her last cycle of chemo, she has an appointment on the 8th with her consultant, I am terrified of what they are going to tell her!! She was told she'd always have cancer!
Will they continue with her chemo even if the cancer is still growing? 
I can't imagine living a single day without her, she is my best friend, I don't have anyone else I can talk to. 
My mum is bottling everything up and not talking about it, I know she's terrified and she needs to talk. I've tried asking her to talk to someone from MacMillan or her Cancer nurse but she just shuts it down. 
Because of covid we haven't been allowed to go in to the hospital with her, I feel so in the dark as to what's going on. 
Apologies for the long, winded story. I know I'm not the only one going through this! ️