Hi

I don't have any experience with palliative chemo but I do have a sick mum. I understand how worried you are and in my opinion you are not a bit selfish. Everyone deals with things differently, but the thought of no longer having your mother is terrifying. The more listeners and support you have should it be strangers or friends and family, may help you to get everything off your chest as many times as you need to which may help you wear that brave face for your mum. There is no cowardice in being afraid of cancer. I have also seen the strongest person I ever loved be ravished by this horrible disease, words cannot describe what this does. As I say I am not an expert but I am like so many other people unfortunately, I do not have a solid support network to talk to or let my emotions pour out. I am more than happy to hear you out and hopefully you will get some support through these forums.

take care