Hello, I was debating even making an account as I am doing my best to ignore that I might have cancer.

Last year I had a very tender chest, under my right lung was so achy and I had a few other symptoms, I phoned my doctors and I was told it was a viral infection. I can't remember if this was before I discovered the swollen gland on the left side of my neck in the middle. It was the size of a peanut but has since gone down to the size of a pea. I can still move it but it doesn't hurt.

During that time I also went to my doctors about a tender really painful spot under my breast bone in the middle of my chest that I though could be Costochondritis, but nothing came of it.

Before christmas I found another lump but on the right side of my neck in the middle but a bit higher than the left and also a small pea sized lump that is hard behind my jugular vein. I also noticed that when I pushed into the right side of my neck where my larynx is, it clicks in. I also found that further down I also have a small hard lump that when I push on it, it'll click.

I have symptoms that keep coming and going such as

️neck pain

️under the jaw pain

️neck that feels inflamed on one side (right)

️Pain in my ears

️my right clavicle is larger than my left

️phlegm 

️hair loss

️sensitive to coldness

️tired but not fatigued 

️sore right tonsil from time to time 

️Nasal congestion

️Itchy but not enough to scratch my arms to death and I am satisfied with a small scratch

️Waking up sore

️random tender spots 

️ Tender under my right armpit but not lump (thank god)

That is all the symptoms I can think of right now

But in the past week I have noticed my chest is tender to touch again, I have been dealing with right shoulder blade grinding for weeks but it was actually painful this week,  under my right jaw has been tender to touch.

I have been driving my partner nuts as all I do is focus on my neck and go through a period of denial and then panic. I have been using my partner as a test dummy to determine if what I am feeling is normal or not. I can't get a face to face with my doctor.

Just last year I was afraid to get a blood tests and now I am afraid to go to the hospital incase it is cancer.i keep trying to calm myself down like telling myself I don't have night sweats,I am not brushing, I am not fatigued.

Also want to mention I was at the hospital last year with supposed appendicitis that turned out to be PCOS. That was in April-May and then around June-July I had inflamed chest and was told it was a viral infection over the phone not face to face. I have also had ear infections which I honestly think was due to me cleaning my ears with cotton buds (Q-tips) which I no longer do.  I had covid in mid December and my breathing wasn't the best I had a crackling sound in my left lung. Whenever I put my head on the left side of my chest I can feel the air going into my lungs but not on my right side. 

My aunt believes me to have a problem with my thyroid. I also want to add I have hay fever and I am asthmatic and I have psoriasis but not psoriatic arthritis 

I mean no disrespect to anyone dealing with cancer, I just need someone to listen to me. My health anxiety has been bad since I lost my mum at 16 to breast cancer.