Hi everybody 

My Mam was diagnosed with bowel cancer in 2019, she had surgery on the bowel to remove the tumour there but unfortunately it had already spread to the liver and lung. Soon after she began chemo therapy through a central line, it went well she had very little side effects, the small cancer spots in her liver and lung had became much smaller, one had completely gone. Her consultant decided she should take a break from her chemo but get a scan after 3 month, scan results came back and nothing new so she was happy for her to continue her break. Next scan results the tumours had started to grow. The next lot of chemo was different, it was tablet for at home,it didn't work and the tumour were still growing but only very small. They decided to go back down the first chemo route which my mam had a reaction too after the first cycle. 
I wish there was something I could do but as it's incurable cancer type I know there isn't a great deal I can do, but I am struggling to come to terms with the thought of my mother never being well again. It hurts so much (selfish as it may sound) I fear the worst everyday. I just thought I'd post on here to see if anyone else has been through the same thing and how you coped.