Hi there.....

So so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... I think loosing our mum's are One of the hardest things we go through ... I lost my mum to a heart attack 32 years ago, and although we learn to live without them, we never stop missing them ...

Have you asked about councilling... what you'd want through, physically and mentally was huge ... and so many are left with just memories of those last month's and it blocks out those pre cancer memories...

Paul McKenna rote a book about when those memories flood your brain, mostly at night ... he said remember the funniest, most loving memory you have of that person... and close your eyes and relive every detail in slow motion ... what was said, how it made you feel ... second by second, over again untill it makes the bad memories go to the back and you should feel it is more manageable...

But please, be kind to yourself and say, sometimetimes it's o.k to not be o.k ... it tells you how much you loved each other ... and I picture my mum looking down, and think what she'd say on things ... and I'm pretty sure, they would put an arm around us and say, they are o.k now ... so I've tried in my life to make my mum proud ... but grieving takes time .... like a deep cut needs time to scab over and heal, although there's a scar left to remind us ... sending a vertual hug  Chrissie x