Hello allymarie and a warm welcome to our forum, 

We always tend to advise our members not to google too much but I am glad you have found us and that Google has landed you here! Hopefully you will soon hear from other members of our forum who have also been in a similar situation and they will come and share their story with you. 

How upsetting it must be for you to see both your parents going through chemotherapy treatment at the moment. You're right not to project yourself too much into the future as you are still trying to process all this. It's so sad that you also lost your sister to cancer and now find yourself going through this and having no siblings to offload to. It's good that your partner seems to be very supportive as you are going through this.  

It must be so hard to see your mum in pain and struggling. It's far from easy to find the right words in a situation like this but I am sure your mum really appreciates that you are there for her. There is useful information on our website for family, friends and caregivers which I hope will be helpful to you. You mentioned that your mum is in pain now - perhaps you could try and talk to her medical team and see whether they could provide adequate pain relief? It may be that her pain relief medication needs to be adjusted at the moment. 

This is such a hard time for you and I just wanted you to know that we are there for you anytime you need to talk to others who have been in a similar place before. We're thinking of you and your family during this difficult time. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator