You know, as a carer, it's ok to vent or complain. I think most of us have done venting at some point. The best advice i ever got from someone was "just listen". You can't fix anything, she obviously doesn't even want you to try and fix something you can't.  Just be there if she happens to talk, and just listen.

Hi, 

My nan became abit distant towards the end, then delirium set in and she couldn't stop talking and as sad as I was because I knew the infection was taking hold, I was overjoyed to hear her speak so vibrantly, 

I'm so sorry to hear your going through this, maybe try to talk about things you know she loved. 

In my nans final days I just held her, I told her I loved her and I was sorry this was happening to her, 

Can I ask is your mum Bedbound or can she still move around? My nan was Bedbound, I was a carer on my own so couldn't move her to take her out, we had carers come in who helped me turn and move her when needed and help me wash her. 

But about 4months before she died I had an opportunity to get her out the house so I did, I took her to the zoo with myself and my children, and I'm so glad I did, health professionals weren't so pleased but we had an oxygen tank, a mobility car, and my nan wanted to so I didn't care what they think. And I'm so glad I did. So if you could get her out even a trip to a cafe or out to lunch a change of scenery could be good. 

Kind regards 

Cassandra 

My mum is also terminally ill with breast cancer and has been living with me for the last 3 months and I am her main carer and even though i have help from the hospice team who are wonderful and visit daily to provide painrelief and care, I still am struggling. I promised her that I wouldnt let her go into a hospital or hospice as with these covid restrictions we wouldnt beable to be by her side and I will keep my promise but i know Im excausted which doesnt help

Mum wont eat and drinks water via a sponge only and has done for the last two weeks, how long can someone suffer for so long. She becomes very distressed a night so I now sleep next to her in a chair every night so I can hold her hand and be there. My issue is when mum tries to communicate with me, my response is to break down in tears,im meant to be strong for her but im a quivering wreak. I tell her I love her and Im there but she needs me to be strong but Im crumbling all the time and I dont know how I can get stronger for her on her final days. Ive always felt I was a strong person but I see now im emotionally very weak,how do others manage to keep strong for their loved ones

My mum is bedbound now and it now takes two of us - my partner and I - to get her to the commode, so sadly we won't be able to get her out of the house. I so would love to have done that for her but she went downhill so quickly, and we are now at the stage where we wonder if it will be her last day. Much as I don't want to lose my darling mum, I cannot bear to see her as she is especially when she gets so distressed.

your Nan was lucky to have you and will have known how much you loved her.