i'm feeling a mix of emotions sadness hopelessness and anger. Why him? He's been my bestfriend brother and father all in one. I'm 24 only just about to start my life and doctors have said they can't continue treatment the cancer had progressed. He is weak i'm an only child and i can see mg mum caring for him he is weak and not eating I want to save him and idk what to do. I can't imagine living without him. He taught me everything I hate myself for all the times I moaned i'm scared and know I will miss him he has deteriorated rapidly this weekend. I want to be with him, I have to work all the time and i bear the idea of living on this planet without him. I struggle with depression and worried i'll become more suicidal.