My dad is deteriorating I'm worried he will die

i'm feeling a mix of emotions sadness hopelessness and anger. Why him? He's been my bestfriend brother and father all in one. I'm 24 only just about to start my life and doctors have said they can't continue treatment the cancer had progressed. He is weak i'm an only child and i can see mg mum caring for him he is weak and not eating I want to save him and idk what to do. I can't imagine living without him. He taught me everything I hate myself for all the times I moaned i'm scared and know I will miss him he has deteriorated rapidly this weekend. I want to be with him, I have to work all the time and i bear the idea of living on this planet without him. I struggle with depression and worried i'll become more suicidal.

  • Hi weliketotravel90,

    Welcome to Cancer Chat. I'm very sorry to hear of the situation with your dad - I can only imagine how incredibly difficult this must be for you all.

    Try not to be hard on yourself or look back with any regrets - I know this is easier said than done and this is commonly done in these situations.

    Do what you can in terms of support but don't feel bad about also needing to do things such as your work. Make sure you keep looking after yourself - speaking to others around you (and that can include us on this forum - it's a safe space to write things down and connect with others who understand), and takings things one day at a time.

    If ever you're feeling really low, please reach out to Samaritans on freephone 116 123 or have a look at their website.

    And we're always here for support if you need it.

    Wishing you all the best,

    Ben
    Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Hi there,

    I am really sorry for what you are going through right now. I am in the same position as you. I am 24 and my dad was diagnosed with GBM a few months ago. He is in the final stages now.

    I just wanted to let you know that there is someone else out there who understands what you are feeling. You will get through this time, and look back at only the happy memories. I am sure of it. 

    I know everything seems so hopeless right now, especially because your dad is someone who you have relied on so much in your life. My dad means the same to me - he is my inspiration. 

    Please think about the life your dad would want you to live - he would not want you to end your life. You are only 24 and have a whole life to live still. I am sure he would want you to live it to the fullest.  

    Please consider getting the support you need, if that means therapy or speaking with family or friends. Just talking to someone goes a long way. 

    You will be in my thoughts x