Watching my mum's decline is absolute torture. She's been steadily decking since March 20 after her lung collapsed .... month on month more symptoms ( every one you read about). Cancer spread to her liver. 

The last 2 weeks dreadful vomitting ....GP assigned district nurses and the syringe driver box is now sat on her bedroom floor ( yet to be used)  but perhaps she had a water infection which they treated with antibiotics and for the confusion they prescribed dexamethasone. The GP has no idea if it's spread to her brain. Over the last few days she seemed to eat a little more and yesterday sat outside for an hour. She has been in her bed since last March. Yesterday new coughing with mucus / tight throat ..... fear that will be the next symptom to contend with. I'm waiting for her not to be able to swallow. GP said she might need a blood transfusion- it might be a little ' pick me up'. 

It's been an absolute hell of a week, I thought we were losing her on Tuesday. How do you manage the uncertainty? How do you manage the trauma? My kids keep saying ' mummy, please stop crying'....