Hi was in total shock after tests revealed Stage4 Oesophageal tumour at bottom of throat an stomach. This was in Feb 2021. Went as constant sore throat an lumpy feeling swallowing. Did think might need throat stretching as had that done many years before but to be sat down an told incurable an spread to stomach nodes an small spot on liver was devastating for both me an my daughter. Saw specialist who said 3/6 months no treatment or 1 year with. Had Chemo but unfortunately 1st round got nauseous severe tingling in hands lung spasms couldn't breath an sweated buckets. Sent me home but within 3 days back on drip in hospital so Specialist said no more as wanted me to be healthy not ill. Just finished radiotherapy last tues an even drive myself but since finishing have pain where tumour is an constant nausea so had injections from nurse at home but hoping as they say this lasts no more than 10 days, that I will be able to eat. Everything revolves around food, socialising with friends, my love of food so trying to keep positive. Have decided not to have any more treatment as side effects stop me enjoying myself as get lightheaded an dizzy on medication. Have accepted diagnosis an not afraid just sad. I would say making this decision has been very hard as my family have been so against me "me giving up" but at the end of the day it has to be my decisions