I already posted here last week, but I feel like I need to talk again. I'm 23 and my mom is dying of cancer.

Me, dad and sister and doctors think these are her last days, but since last week nothing much changed. She's sleeping all day, barely drinking, not eating and at this point which is painful- not recognizing us. 

Quite honestly, the waiting is horrible. I wish it was over already. I love my mom and I wish I could have her here longer. But I'm checking every minute to see if she's still alive or not. I can't stand the waiting. I'm glad that at least she has a good painkillers, but the waiting is awful.

She was diagnosed in January so this all is still a shock for me. I sometimes wonder if I'm dreaming? She's been in this kind of coma state since last week. One day I'm okay, the other I can't stop crying. I feel like I'm living a nightmare.