Hi all I'm sammy and I'm 19

ive been diagnosed with cancer for 2 weeks now. my full diagnosis on the type of cancer I have I receive tommorow morning. Fortunately or unfortunately I did learn about cancer in school and I know enough to be 99% certain my cancer is terminal. Tommorow I find out for sure and I will know my full plan for treatment. Right now I am very anxious as you can imagine but I want this post to be about my parents. I'm extremely fortunate to have amazing parents I'm extremely close with. But this has made this experience so much harder for them becasue they love me so much. Right now my parents are a mess. They are holding up in front of me becasue they don't want me to worry but I know they are at a breaking point. They are still holding out onto the hope that I can be cured which at this point I'm 99% sure isn't the case.

I know that tommorow is going to break them when they find out I'm terminal and that hurts me so much.  If tommorow is the worst day of my parents life But then the day after that is better and their emotional states improve over time not back to their original levels but to a stable state that sucks but it would be ok . But My worry is that tommorow is going to push them past a point they can't return from emotionally. 
 

I understand that realistically tommorow is going to be a absolutely *** day for them no matter what I do. But is there any ways that I can reduce the blow to them? Maybe before we receive the news I should talk to them openly about the terminal word which is something I haven't done.

I really want them to go to support groups maybe even we could do a family support thing.

anyone have any advice or been in a similar situation I would really appreciate anything thank you. Anything you say to this post will help within reason please don't insult me.

I don't want anyone to reply though if they are going to tell me to stop worrying about my parents becasue I love them vey much and they are a massive part of my life and that won't change.

thank you