Hi, 

My mum was diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer in June 2018. She had an operation and 6 months of chemo which went well. Then last year in March she was told it was back and had spread, and then in September was told she would be lucky to get a year. Since October it has spread further and she is in constant pain. My dad is looking after her but obviously with everything that has been going on we've not been able to see them. My mum puts on a brave face for myself, my brothers and grandkids when she sees them on FaceTime but having spoke to my dad I know she's not well. I have a daughter due in June but it sounds as if my mum won't meet her. I'm really struggling with all this. I'm constantly angry, I snap at my wife all the time. I have this feeling inside of me which is difficult to explain but feels like I just want to scream and be left on my own for a while. I don't talk to anyone about this as I'm not sure how to. I don't even feel like I can talk to my wife. I feel I need to be strong for my parents as I don't want them to worry and I need to be strong for my family. I have a 19 month old son that I need to be there for. Not being able to see anyone, family or friends at this moment in time is so hard. If anyone has any insight into how to help deal with this or any suggestions on what to do going forward that would be great. 
 

Thanks, 

Rob