Hi there ...

I'm so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment.... it's truly one of the hardest things well ever do ... but from my experience,  after loosing so many family members is, no one should take the grief on alone ... it will brake you ... it's about sharing tears , hugs , and being allowed to grieve in whatever way it comes ... and yea, grief starts before we loose someone ...  I think it's our heart and head trying to make sense of how we will feel and cope .. when there is no sense ...

I'd say hold each other's hand through this .. don't be afraid to show your emotion, then you give others permission to do the same ... if you hold it in, others will to .. and this time is about everyone admitting they are scared .. wer only human ... 

We can hide feelings and tuck them away in our brains, but at some point they will all come flooding out and then it's overwhelming... so be kind to you first ... give yourself permission to feel what ever comes into your mind... and then try to make the most of these last times ... say what you need to say .. make memories with your dad ... you still have some time .. ask him about his life.... I'm sure there's lots you don't know... look through photos ... watch a film ... take each day as a bonus .... 

Sending a vertual hug.... hold on ... you can always just chat on here ... so many have been where you are now ... talking is the key to letting emotion out .... Chrissie x