Dads fast downhill progression

I lost my mum Feb 2020 suddenly and unexpectedly, she was 67 and it hurts like hell. In December my dad (63) started having troubles with his leg and assumed it was a flare up of sciatica. A week or two passed and he was starting to have troubles with his left hand. 

After a tumble out of bed a few nights later, I called the ambulance who admitted him with stroke like symptoms. After scans were completed they diagnosed him with stage 4 lung cancer which has spread to his brain and adrenal glands. 

Dad was discharged from hospital before christmas and we had a nice few days with some good food.

After christmas dad began to lose his mobility completly and could not really walk anymore. 

One morning in late january, dad could not get up from bed - not even sit up anymore so I called an ambulance. 

Dad has been in hospital since and he sounds so down and depressed. He is starting to struggle even speaking and his short term memory is non existent when I ask him about meals and his day. 

I was informed today that doctors and nurses had been discussing palliative care/ EOLC for him. 

I knew it was coming but 4 months ago, dad seemed normal and fine. I feel way too young for this to be happening to me and im an emotional wreck. Dad is very emotional on the phone and my heart breaks for him. I am a few years young of being 30 and I have no siblings to share this pain with. I have my partner whom is doing her absolute best and I have completed an assessment to being CBT counselling as soon as possible. 

Thanks for reading. 

  • I really feel for you , my hear goes out to you it must be so hard for you 

  • Hi Ben,

    What an awful lot you have had to deal with in such a short amount of time. Losing your mum so suddenly then your dads diagnosis must have been a really terrible shock for you. I can't even begin to imagine the pain your experiencing, but it's good you have a partner to help you through this. 
     

    My Grandad (70) who's more like my dad (he raised me) has also been diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer, and I can't begin to tell you what a massive shock it was. I can totally sympathise and understand when you say you fast your dads health has declined and how he was fine 4 month ago. I feel exactly the same. If someone would have told me last summer that in November my grandad was to be diagnosed with terminal lung cancer id have never believed it!

    I have tried CBT therapy, but I felt that it wasn't really for me and didn't target what I was going through, but everyone is different. I'm not sure if you have spoken to Macmillan? I've spoken to them a few times and they've been a big comfort for me. 
     

    Like yourself I too am only young (30) and have no siblings either so I don't really have anyone to share the burden or the pain with. If you ever need to chat feel free to inbox me. 
     

    Take care x

  • It's hard bro. I have just found out my dad has 9month left but feel I have to be strong for my bro and sister who are younger and I don't no who to turn to or talk to has my missus is trying but I just need to rant hence y I just posted on here like you . I hope your good mate and keeping well

  • Thanks - I dont think anything in life will be as hard as this. Emotionally and physically it makes everything else ive ever struggled with seem insignificant and ridiculous. 

    Sending you lots of strength. 

  • Hey, thanks for your reply. 

    Its been a horrendous 12 months. We had mums first year anniversary since passing on Thursday and I think dad was completely unaware of the day and its significance. I didnt remind him as I didnt want him getting upset when he is already quite confused and delirious. In some ways I wonder if the brain cancer has a silver lining - maybe he doesnt see his illness progression and he doesnt realise how awful the situation is? I hope so.

    I have started counselling via Hospice who are my local palliative hospice team. They seem great and I hope to find solice eventually. 

    I just hate not being in control, its my biggest annoyance in life and cancer leaves you completely out of control once its taken hold. 

    Please message me whenever you need, I feel that talking with others directly in the same or similar situation who are a same age as me will be helpful? 

    Sending you lots of love. We will get through it