In October my beautiful wife 43ys was diagnosed with advanced bowel cancer after having back pain,it had spread to her pelvis spine liver and lungs, being the wonderful wife and mother she is, she bravely stayed positive and had successfull radiotherapy and begun her chemo, but in December she contracted covid and had to spend Christmas fighting for her life, she amazingly pulled through, I am so proud of how she fought for me and our 4 boys, but it took its toll on her body, her condition deteriorated and now we are in the hospice (full of amazing people) and are coming to the end. The thought of her last moments and the boys having to say goodbye to their amazing mum terrifies me I don't know if I can cope with that.