My dad has had bladder cancer (he has other numerous health conditions too)  now for 8 years but just before lockdown last year he started bleeding and was admitted to hospital.... to cut a long story short he is now back in hospital. He has been for two weeks.... he was admitted because he was severely dehydrated and was found he had covid. Doctors have put a gold care plan in and dads spoke to Macmillan nurses and has agreed to not be resuscitated, if something happened. 
He has really gone down hill, he they cannot treat the bleed with a bladder wash then there is nothing else they can do for him. They let my mum go and see him yesterday and she said how much he had aged in the time he had been in hospital. She said dad seemed to have accepted the fact that he is going to die and seems to be at peace with it. 
I honestly don't know how I'll cope without him... he's an amazing dad and loves his grandchildren so much! I can't bear thinking about what happens when he goes! The thought of never seeing him etc is literally breaking me. I can't sleep and I'm having panic attacks! 
Can anyone with similar experiences share their stories.... I need some reassurance I think