Apsolutly devostated beyond words my nanna as weeks if days hours left to live she as cancer my heart is broken she went from. Speaking on the phone a few weeks back to lifeless and been given a short life a woman who's strong proud and the most amazing woman I know I lost my mother at the age of 11 to cancer which at that age is hard to understand and I miss my mum and crave for her everyday loosing my nan to this awful desease the woman who brought me up after my mum died I can't be more thankful but also so hurt inside that soon she wil no longer be around been older and understand the effects now as really torn me apart I don't no how il carry on knowing I can't speak to hear her again let alone vist her. This whole covid stuff as really took its toll il be forever broken some were part of me wants her to get peace and find my mum and the other half is not wanting to hear that's she's gone she's in hospital and I know she's in safe hands but my god I want to hold kiss and tel her I love her I live miles away so can't vist or say my goodbyes in person because we're in lockdown I just wish and hope one day they is a cure for cancer because I can't loose anyone else the pain is beyond all I have is memory's and memory's sometimes arnt enough as they say treasure life capture the best moments and forever remember sorry for the long essay I needed to get it of my chest I can hear her voice calling my name life sure is cruel