Hello lovely, I can't give you hope as im

in the breast cancer mastectomy queue but I can send you lots of positive love and prayers and hope and I'm sure there is someone on here who can offer more but meanwhile keep that strong face in front of your children but do contact a support group to help when you are falling apart. Huge love, I'll never meet you but I'm willing your husband well xxx 

Hi there, I hope you dont mind me popping in, your husbands story sounds very similar to mine, he has T4, N1, M1, oesophageal spread to lung, chest nodes. Starts EOX tomorrow am terrified as no idea what to expect and so far nobody has replied to my thread asking about this. Just wanted to offer support to you wife to wife, its not an easy time especially being a mum, we have two older children but they are very scared. I have just started a new job, five days a week, after losing my job in travel this year and am wondering if I should just stay home to look after my husband. I do hope that your husband continues to do well, your comments so far suggest he is rallying with treatment which is fantastic. 
I was not able to be at the oncology appointment so only know what my husband told me, he didn't give any indication about prognosis etc. Sending you best wishes for Christmas and hopefully a happier new year for all of us x

Hello Fizz,

                 l read your post with a sense of sadness and awareness of the issues you raise,the cold,the tiredness, and the uncertainty.My stage 4 tumour was in the bowel with spread to liver,60%of which was removed along with gall bladder.l too kept working as l had  a livestock farm,guesthouse,and small community post office,but it got increasingly harder as the treatment progressed.l still kept going,never accepted defeat,but recognised when tiredness became overwhelming to take too my bed,realising l could get up again and carry on.l took it the absolute brink but always feared that that one extra step would plunge me into an abyss.Your husband will find this and his limit, and like myself will adjust his working life to take account of the circumstances.l always felt it right to push,and felt this would give me some measure of control on my fight back to health.Six years on l am back fighting fit and making up for the years not lost,but given over to evicting my unwelcome guest.

                              We never know the outcome of this unwelcome visitors presence in our body until we complete the journey,but l do know that never ceding it control in your mind,and keeping stress to an absolute minimum are good allies to have by your side.l am pleased to read of the positive signs that the spread has ceased and the tumour is shrinking,and l hope this path is set leading to a good recovery.Be sure in amongst all of this to look after you,even broad shoulders need some help and assistance,

                                                                                                 Take care,

                                                                                                                      David