My mum seems to be in the final hours/days of life now. She has had a syringe pump installed today to get morphine and anti-sickness medicine into her. She has a rare and aggressive liver cancer. Two weeks ago she was up and about and able to go for endoscopy, now she is awake for a couple of minutes and then drops back into sleep. We have managed to keep her home for hospice care but she is my hero and the best mum I could have ever hoped for. I love her dearly. But I cannot cope seeing her eyes roled back and her mouth slightly sagged open. I do not think I could handle seeing her pass. Is this wrong? I want her to know I am there and with her as she journeys on but I seriously worry I may not handle it well. I feel like that is selfish but I want to remember as she was and not as she is now.